aham asmi! (= I AM)

In May of 1964, I re-birthed into Gaia for my next lightwork mission as the youngest of five children in a devout Utah Scandinavian Mormon family.  My great-grandparents were converted to Mormonism in the 1850's and were baptized in the "old country" before  emigrating to the United States of America under the guarantee that Zion (or the Promised Land) was waiting for them in Northern Utah, hundreds of treacherous, covered wagon miles from Rockford, Illinois where the railroad lines to the West ended. 

 

My parents were children of the Silent Generation (or the Traditional Generation) and born into a religion that had many rules and restrictions built around Joseph's Smith's discovery of the new testament of Jesus Christ in the new World ("The Book of Mormon").  My father, Blaine, did his duty as a good Mormon elder and spent two years as a missionary in Buenos Aires, Argentina, while my mother, Dawne, was majoring in Physical Education at the University of Utah and dating.  They both spent their lives dedicated to Mormon dogma, paid their tithing faithfully, and had five children to respond to God's will to repopulate the earth with future Mormons. 

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HOWEVER, my mother wasn't satisfied.  In fact, she was never satisfied with Mormonism even after checking off all the rule boxes and becoming the model Mormon wife.  This was where not only my mother's spirituality began, but also mine at the age of nine.  After many visions and downloads and researching the topic of reincarnation, she decided to grab the family and leave the Church, embarrassing many outer family members, especially her father (my grandfather), who was a very influential financial controller and long-respected patriarch.

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The story of her leaving Mormonism is much more dramatic and layered, but I will provide that narrative later.  Once she left the church, she spent many years deprogramming from Mormonism and investigating other philosophies and belief systems until she came across a collection of Eastern and "New Age" dogmas that not only spoke to her resonance with reincarnation, but also multidimensionality (or the direct connection between our souls and extraterrestrial life).  Over time, through her thirst of knowledge and through visions, meditation and channeling her higher self , my mother gathered a collection of "radical" information that today is not so radical at all and resonates 100% with many new age dogmas and physicists today.

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On this website, I will include texts and teachings left to me by my mother before she passed away of lung cancer in 2015.  These "downloads" from the multiverse and the Akasha were specifically given to me by her along with her cherished handmade prayer table symbolizing the first seven dimensions of reality.

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My mother's battle with cancer was in her thyroid for many years until it metastasized into the lungs, giving us two weeks to say goodbye.  On her final day of consciousness, she told me in confidence, "I am giving you all my gifts and the knowledge I have learned."  I was flattered of course but didn't really know how to integrate her comment until the Fall of 2020 when I returned from a life-changing gay tantra retreat in Spain and the Universe began sending men from all walks of life asking for guidance and help.

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In May of 2016, my adopted and troubled son, Dakota, decided to leave our home for a group home and in Summer 2017 he decided to move in with his blood family -- the same family that was determined unfit to care for him by Children's Aid Services.  It was a devastating event and I had to remind myself that although I did a stellar job at parenting him and giving him a home, he simply couldn't adopt a structure or responsibilities that other kids could.

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Once I returned from Spain, I was obsessively motivated to manifest a new shift in my life from being a corporate slave to serving myself and opening my own healing practice and sanctuary in Costa Rica.  While I was focused on that every day, men out of the blue began finding me to help them with their trauma.   At first I found this odd and out-of-the-blue, since I hadn't been aware of any acumen to heal via my kundalini energy and I had no advertising to justify these men finding me.  After treating a signifcant amount of men, I began sharing this situation with a friend and Toronto guru who confirmed that the multiverse bestowed this gift upon me as a reward for my years as a devoted parent and my son rejecting me.

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After doing the inner work I learned in Spain for 108+ days, our jobs packaged me and my husband, Robert, out for a year, we sold the downtown condo for three times the original price, we got rid of most of my belongings and we headed south to Costa Rica where we found "Casa Kāma" in Quepos, 15km from Manuel Antonio Beach and Reserve.

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